Honestly Amy

I honestly don’t know if I will ever be a normal sized person…and that scares me.

It is the ultimate Sunday Night. I mean…there are Sunday nights every week…but it’s the Sunday night before school starts. The Sunday night that marks the end of summer vacation and the beginning of a new teaching year.

Tomorrow I sit through introductions and silly meetings and come Tuesday the kiddos are back. Time will fly and in the blink of an eye it will be Columbus Day, Thanksgiving, and Christmas.

It is my reality that I will be working as a paraprofessional for another school year. And while I know the year will go by fast, I’m just frustrated that I cannot find an actual teaching position. I’m frustrated that I have to wait an entire year before I can look for a teaching postion for next year.

My dissatisfaction with work snowballs into I have no money, and all my friends just moved away, and I am alone and feel like I’ll never meet anyone worth spending time with. 

I think the bigger problem is that I had so many fun things to do this summer to look forward to. Now I just have a kind of sucky job. There isn’t anything that I’m excited about. I need to find someone to get excited about but it seems like everything costs money that I don’t have.

If I could describe what I thought my life would be like, and more importantly what I WANT my life to be like, this would not be it. So I guess the problem is this: how do I get from where I am to where I want to be?

Ice cold water.

Late night pasta.

Early X-Files episodes on Netflix.

Planning my attack/come back.

So I’ve been super absent from Tumblr…haven’t been worrying about what I’ve been eating or exercising. I’ve done A LOT of YOLO ice cream eating. And while I definitely want to get back to a place involving vegetables and working out, I’m in a very good place right now. Let me rephrase that…I’m in an awesome place right now.

Despite all the traveling and eating out I’ve maintained my weight all summer. I’ve been filling my time with weddings and travels and visiting friends. I’ve been living and loving it. 

I somehow got over the thought that my legs look like tree trunks and started wearing skirts this summer. They make me feel like a lady.

I’ve bought and worn 4 dresses this summer. And though it was a tight fit in my maid of honor dress, I felt pretty. During my BFF’s bachelorette party, I snapped a full-length mirror shot and today I made it my new FB profile picture. A FULL BODY SHOT…who am I?

I have one more week of summer vacation which I plan to enjoy to the fullest and I am going to get back on the weight loss train when my school routine starts up again.

Catching up  on my dash after being away for a week+ is impossible. Updates after I sleep for the next 18 hours.