June 2012
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Here's To A Fabulous Tomorrow
In anticipation of operation Don’t Feel Like A Sausage, I joined My Fitness Pal. I’m going to attempt tracking calories/workouts on there.
I was feeling like a super failure today after barely fitting into my dress. But adding the My Fitness Pal widget to my tumblr page brought me back to reality. In the past year, I have lost and kept off 25 pounds. Seeing the number 25 in bold, red...
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MOH Dress
So my smaller Maid of Honor dress came in today.
The good news: I was able to zip it.
The bad news: It’s tight and the pleats on the back fall awkwardly and I feel like a sausage.
Operation Don’t Feel Like A Sausage begins tomorrow at sunrise.
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Struggle Struggle Struggle...
Struggle is the one thing I seem to be good at lately.
Last weekend my soon to be bride friend asked if I tried on my new smaller dress when I ordered it.
While she was probably just making conversation, my mind immediately jumped to “OMG she can tell that I’ve gained 5 pounds and thinks I’ll be too fat to fit in my dress thus ruining her wedding.”
Now I know that these...
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On Running Part 2
sleepruneatrepeat replied to your post: On Running
it’s mental. it’s always mental. your body is a machine and it does what your mind tells it to.
I want to believe this…I do. But physiology has to play a role. The inability to catch a breath. The pain in my legs that lingers for days. A pulse over 180 bpm.
Running should be natural. But I get caught up in the stride and the foot strike...
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On Running
I have a lot of feelings towards running lately. It is hard and I don’t know why it isn’t getting any easier. I’ve been doing the run/walk thing pretty consistently (I started this post 2 weeks ago before I stopped being healthy) and I can still barely run for one minute before I feel like I’m going to die.
At first, I thought it was the switch from the treadmill to...
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Okay Day.
Woke up today at 244.something. Down from yesterday’s 247ish. Lots and lots of water was had yesterday. Also I didn’t eat the world at the cookout yesterday. Yay!
Today I finally got a chance to sleep in and I was up by 7:15. Ugh. I read for a little bit and fell back asleep until 9:30!!! Laid in bed and finished The Descendants which made me sad and a bit lonely.
Got out of my...
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Ok So...
Here is what we’re working with.
I haven’t really exercised in 2 weeks-ish.
I haven’t been watching what I’ve been eating.
I’ve been super stressed with the end of school.
It’s scary how easy it is to get off track…to fall into bad habits. When I eat better, I feel better and look better yet despite that I haven’t been making that a priority.
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Still Alive
I realize I’ve been completely absent since my mini breakdown last week. Losing out on a job and the stress of the school year ending just wound me into knots.
Instead of eating well and exercising to keep the stress at bay, I gave in. I ate all the carbs in Massachusetts and watched copious amounts of Dawson’s Creek on Netflix. Basically, I had a week-long pity party.
But today...
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Today I Am Not Doing Life
Thursday has me feeling like a failure at life. And not in a cheeky way but in a grab a cat and a can of frosting and become a professional recluse kind of way.
Walked into a meeting this morning that I wasn’t invited to only to later find out they were discussing my placement for next year. If I’m still a paraprofessional I asked to stay with the girl I work with this year....
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National Running Day
I set out with plans to walk and run if the spirit moved me. Well it did.
I did 3 miles-ish in 56:01. And I ran for 7 minutes and 16 seconds of that time (not continuous obviously). This may not seem like a lot but it is actually the longest amount of time I’ve run recently.
I did a 10 minute warm up walk today which I think my body appreciated. I slowed my run way down to a shuffle and...
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Dress Update
I stayed home from work today because my school has a 24 hour fever free policy and I definitely didn’t mind sleeping in today.
Around lunch time I headed to David’s Bridal to try on a smaller maid of honor dress. When I bought the dress in May it fit well. When I got the actual dress in the mail it zipped up with ease. Then I noticed how baggy the top was, how the back gaped, and...
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Feeling Hot Hot Hot
And I have a fever.
Which explains the “I think I’m going to pass out on the sidewalk” feeling during my walk this afternoon. As well as the, “I think I’m going to fall asleep standing up” feeling during my grocery trip.
To bed with me and my hot, hot face.
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The Run That Wasn't
Don’t get me wrong. I got out there. I did my 5 minute warm up walk then started to jog. Literally, 59 seconds in I thought I was going to die. I couldn’t breathe, I felt like I was going to throw up and it was difficult to swallow. I don’t know whether I inhaled a lot of pollen or whether my body just needed a rest but I literally could not run.
Instead of getting down on...
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The sun is peeking out…during a rain for 5 days kind of week.
Time to RUN!
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Challenge Week 3
Well…I did get 12 points.
But I attacked this week’s challenge with the intensity of a second semester senior that has already been accepted to college. I showed up and got my 12 points but that’s about it.
And despite getting 7/7 points for eating and 5/7 points for exercise I gained weight this week. But I think I learned things too.
Last Sunday, I weighed 242ish....
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A Friday Surprise
I’ve had a busy and kind of shitty week but all is not lost.
On Wednesday, we tie-dyed t-shirts for field day. The gym teacher who is young and fit and cute but married was in charge. He asked if I wanted a large or extra large. They are men’s shirts so I asked for a large, mostly because I was embarrassed to ask him for an extra large. I figured I could stretch it out or forget to...
