Because then it would mean today would be over. I’m so unhappy with my job this year. I know I know. I feel like I complain about this a lot but in the past I’ve at least felt effective and useful.
This year I feel like I’m in the way. The teacher I work with is the most controlling person I’ve ever met. Because she never tells me anything I just have to guess what she expects of me. And then if I don’t do that she chastises me. She doesn’t utilize me in any way yet gets all pissy when I get pulled to work with other classes. It’s like she doesn’t want me but she doesn’t want anyone else to have me either.
The kids get to go on an overnight trip in the spring and I was super excited to go but today I was told they aren’t taking anyone extra. I get it but I’m disappointed. I guess I feel like what’s the harm in having an extra person if I want to go. So everyone will get to have this awesome experience while I miss out. The only thing that I ever look forward to at work is seeing the kids I work with. To be told that I can’t go with them on this awesome trip after spending so much time with them sucks.
And today was dreary. Not Octobery at all.